Saturday, November 26, 2011

Shadow Speak

Yesterday while on my evening walk, I chanced upon a tiny road, away from the main path that I usually walked on. My curiosity led me to look upon it, even try and gauge it from afar. What I saw was a little road, seemingly not often tread upon. The grass grew in patches here, from time to time nature seemed to have remembered to strew some flowers rather casually. Strangely the flowers weren't beautiful, they were dull in color, most of them at least. Some of then bobbed up a head or two in excitement of the on-coming of the winds. I couldn't resist myself, the little road seemed to be straight out of some magical land. As I tread, still skeptical, I noticed a long shadow like creature walk along, strangely enough the shadow wasn't mine. The form was masculine I noticed. I walked here and there but try as I might I could not make the shadow leave. Unknown to myself, I shivered a bit, but then I decided I had to be brave and talk to the shadow, get rid of unknown cobwebs. I said, "who are you?" The shadow turned, as if from a distance, seemed  to smile a bit and say, " Don't you know me, try to see if you can recognize me" I peered, closely and tried to identify who it was, I said, " I'm really sorry, I can't recognize you" Grave now the shadow said, " I am the first real sorrow, you felt". Strangely unlike shadows, this one didn't seem to flitter but stood steadfastly in the same stance, in the same place. I tried to look through what seemed a very heavy burden, bowed my head and looked at my toes and then I asked, " have you dried up your share of tears?" The shadow was silent, It seemed that sorrow and smiles seemed to have found a strange co-existence together in it.

Suddenly the shadow, turned it's face towards mine and said , "once you had said that you would cherish you grief for an eternity" I bowed my head down, was I embarrassed, was I shy? I reached out for it's hand and took the rather long and outstretched darkness into mine and said, "it has been rather long, time has asked me to forget what once was a piercing pain. You have changed too" The hand shifted slightly and came away from mine. I smiled a bit, looked up and said with the wisdom that hurt brings, "sorrow has turned to peace, and you a distant memory of what was."

The shadow vanished, perhaps for forever, the grass seemed a tad greener and the flowers somehow more bright..Somehow just then I wanted to see every colour and become every one of them. Life like magic is strange, you have to be the magic sometimes perhaps, to be able to live it.

(Inspired by Rabindranath Tagore )

© 2011 Maitreyee Bhattacharjee Chowdhury

( Image courtesy Google)


Mom with a Dot said...

Very well written. I could feel myself reach out to the outstretched dark hand. Inspired by the Guru? Could you share which one please...

The Unknowngnome said...

A wonderful walk through shadow to yonder beyond.

This is vapor, ethereal, pure poetic writing. You have manifested thought with such intangible and incorporeal language that I have dreamed.

If I were a shadow, I would want to be yours.

Maitreyee Bhattacharjee Chowdhury said...

@ Mom with a Dot..thanks for your kind words. The piece was inspired on reading Rabindranath's first spiritual experience, where he is in a state of ecstasy for 4 days, leading to extraordinary elation. He describes it as 'Boderland age' where the direct rays of truth are overshadowed by the different shadows of life that chase each other. @ have perhaps unknowingly given me one of the most memorable compliments..thank you :)

Prashanth said...

Nicely expressed, I could imagine the path, shadow as I read your blog....:)

Raj said...

Poetic and sublimely beautiful. :)Very thought provoking. Elegance and dexterity have found a beautiful coexistence in your writing!

Aakash @ Love poems said...

Wow! Loved going through such a beautiful inspiring story. Thanks for sharing :)

Rahul Bhatia said...

The shadows lead to life where happiness still prevails, like proverbial 'light at the end of a dark tunnel!Very thought provoking!

Maitreyee Bhattacharjee Chowdhury said...

@Prashant, Raj, Akash, Rahul and all those who have read..thanks so much for all your comments. The incident on which this piece was inspired is from Rabindranath's own life where he experiences his first spiritual awakening, which lasted for almost four days. In this heightened state of consciousness he talks to nature and thinks of it as alive as a human being..I simply played around with the idea of speaking to shadows present in us and in nature and dreamt of how a conversation might end up. Thanks

Carrie Burtt said...

A spiritual awakening indeed....lovely writing!

Dulcina said...

Tagore, my favourite writer ever, Maitreyee, a mystic, a philosopher, a music composer and probably a good Christian if Christians had been true Christians then. Tagore, a universal poet for all times, inspired in Love.
You have chosen Vaishnava Songs, number 27, a good inspiration, indeed:
"Once you said," she whispered, "that you would cherish your grief for ever."
-"What was sorrow once has now become peace," she said.
Thanks for such a beautiful recreation on Rabindranath Tagore.
For me the shadow in Tagore represents the conscience.
Best wishes.